I am someone that loves being active on social media and I am a member of several different sites. Most of the time I hope to get a huge following that love the photos and art I create and share. And although I do have a wonderful group of family and friends online, the following I keep hoping for has not yet occurred.
My goal is to connect with people all over the world, make friends, and sell my work. I am so passionate about photography and art. I love to create things that I hope others will enjoy. But, I have failed. So many have expressed how much they love my work yet, no one is really buying. This leaves me extremely discouraged. Perhaps, I’m not really as good as I think I am.
Today, I am actually considering selling my Nikon DSLR 3600 series set. Not because I no longer want to take pictures, but because the income I was hoping to be making just isn’t happening and right now, I could use the extra income to build up my emergency fund. Don’t get me wrong, I am not struggling. But I was just hoping to have more build up in our emergency fund by now. Living on the road, you just never know when there is an emergency or a repair needs to be made. The income I was hoping to be making from my work was going into this fund. But, that hasn’t happened in even though I am slowly adding a little more each month to this fund, I am disappointed that I have not yet reached my goal. I’m not giving up, but I know some hard sacrifices may have to be made in order for me to reach my goal. Right now the toughest sacrifice would be my camera set.
But, I’m not quite ready to go that route yet. I love my camera and capturing the beauty of this world and I also know that many of my friends and family do enjoy my pictures.
As a nomad I am living my dream and I couldn’t be happier. But I still go through these moments when I just feel invisible and unimportant. I am but a grain of sand in a vast desert. I want to stand out…. but I don’t know how.
I am someone that has lived with a challenging mental disorder but I have never allowed that to define who I am. I share my struggle with Dissociative Identity Disorder so that people can understand what it is like instead of believing the myths, misconceptions, and misunderstanding that has plagued this disorder. But I also show a face of strength, intelligence, perseverance, and pride for the woman I am today. My disability does not define me at all. What does define who I am is the love and passion I have for photography and art.
Whenever I grab my camera and capture the beauty of a landscape, sunset, sunrise, or even humanity at it’s best, It fills my soulmeith so much joy that I smile at every click of my camera. Whenever I pick up a sketch pad, or canvas to create art, I feel as if I am creating the greatest masterpiece and it fills my life with a joy that makes me feel so complete. I love to create… simple as that. But I love to be able to share these passions of mine with the world.
We are living in a digital world where people become overnight sensations just being who they are. I’m not really looking for fame in that sense. I much prefer being popular in a much quieter sense. Perhaps this is why I feel invisible. Am I too quiet? Not aggressive enough? Or maybe I’m just not that interesting. Whatever it may be, I feel invisible in this world of social media.
Regardless of how invisible I may feel in this age of social media, it still doesn’t take away from the joy that I feel when I share a bit about myself and the world I live in with those who have followed me and my journey for years. I cherish those friends and family even more because through it all, they have stood by my side and continue to encourage me and my talents even if I’m not the greatest. That right there is the meaning of true love. So no matter what the struggle may be, I will continue to just be me. When this life of mine ends, all that matters to me is if I have made a difference to someone and inspired them to love who they are, then I have not done all of this in vain.
And who knows…. perhaps there is still time for me to become quietly infamous. Life is wonderful outside of social media. I am really not that invisible. Just look at what I can do.
Below, there will be a list of all the sites I am a member of. Feel free if you so choose to follow me in any or all of them. There is life online outside of Facebook. 😁
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